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all at once. -- i identify as queer, cisgender, and polyamorous -- things i talk about frequently and openly: mental health/illness, stigma; social work and social justice; native american culture and sociopolitical issues; queer things (identity, sex/sexuality, politics, gender); poly; kink.
stared at draco like he’s magic because he’s so hard to find in the city, but here, he’s a big neon dragon blinking at me from a million years ago.
saw cygnus’s full wingspan.
not just ursa major, but ursa minor too.
all of ophiacus! didn’t even have to squint!
and i bet you didn’t even know there’s a lynx in the sky, did you? well, she’s there, i assure you.
i think i saw the milky way, too. i think.
it is a serious shame we yinzers live such starless lives.
my heart feels fuller than it has in a long time.
how many stars we see are already dead and gone
we just don’t know yet
and how weird it will be if in my lifetime
i look up to discover alnilam has blinked off
like we will teach toddlers
we used to call pluto the 9th planet in the solar system
we will tell the story of how orion’s belt
once had a center star
that is the downfall of having always lived in a metropolitan area - for all my learning, there are so many sky things i’ve never met. for example, i’ve found where cancer is, but i’ve never knowingly seen any if its stars because it’s always been too bright.
even a handful of extra stars throws me off now and i can’t differentiate anything i know, but someday i will look up and see as many as the north american sky will allow and be able to name hundreds of things.
the zodiac will go without saying, and the big stars like castor, pollux, sirius, polaris, bellatrix, betelguese, aldebran, albireo, of course.
but i will know dozens and dozens of stars and draw maps of constellations by season by memory.
you will hear me say things like, “oh, that’s interesting, jupiter is in aries now…” without checking any maps at all.
i will be able to tell you, “see those ones between capricorn and the microscope? before the sky was standardised, they called them globus aerostaticus, the hot air balloon.”
and SOMEDAY i will travel and see things the north american sky never knows, like pavo and grus and phoenix, hadar and acrux and fomalhaut. i will probably be so happy i start crying when i see these things.
cassiopeia and andromeda
on the roof of hotel cecco in arezzo, italy, with widget and prof. hobbs.
i saw this great shape in the sky like a triangle with a really bright star at the top. the bright star was jupiter and the bottom two were the bottom of leo.
i was walking from my apartment to the art school incredibly late one night and i looked up and i immediately recognised its head from embroidering it on my pillow.
and now perseus
in lee and emily’s backyard in a robe.
there’s also falling man, the constellation i made up
i found him july 2012, probably the 3rd, 4th, or 5th
my iPod touch was dead and i hadn’t replaced my star chart, so i didn’t know what stars i was looking at and decided the ones i saw were falling man. turns out his left arm is part of auriga, the right is from taurus, and his feet are orion’s arms. his head turned out to be jupiter.
I FINALLY FOUND DRACO. i have tried over and over to put draco together, never able, but Tonight, i finally saw it. also found hercules and one called alderamin. constellations feel good.
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